Three things that I am seeking answers to (#1KWAD)
|Jul 21, 2019|
Three things that I am seeking answers to.
I slept at 8:15ish last night and woke up at 6. I haven't slept this well in days. I don't know why. But I hadn't. But now that I've slept for that long, I am as fresh as, well, daisies. Dark daisies. Lol.
The price I had to pay for this slumber is that I broke a 13-day streak of sending SoGv2 letters. Which is ok.
For a change, I am writing this in the morning (it's about 9 AM). In the sense that I have started to write this in the morning. The last few letters, I start those in the second half and then I am scrambling to finish those before midnight and send. Second half because in the last few days I have changed how I work (I follow 15-min Deep Work cycles) and I tend to slot the most important things in the morning (SoG is important but does not make money for me and thus gets pushed down the priority list) and thus I am left with very little time at the end of the day to write the SoG. And I feel because of that, often the letters are thus not engaging. I mean I love them but I feel I can do more.
So, here's a decision. I will ensure that SoG is slotted among the first few things for the day. Like this one. Let's see how many days this trip goes.
It's no secret that I love Sundays. The entire world's asleep and you are one of the few that are up and about. And instead of whiling time, you are trying to push yourself. It's cool that not everyone has to. As long as what I do gives me happiness, I am ok with it. And since most of the world is taking easy on a Sunday, I have minimal distractions - few people to talk to, few calls to attend, few urgent things. All this fewness allows you to take a step back and think about all the things that you haven't been able to find an answer to.
And some such questions that have perplexed me lately are...
1. Despite my self-proclaimed status as a wise man, why is it that I am unable to forge deep connections with people? You know, the kinds that allow me to have people who understand me, people who relate to what am up to and people who actively want to push me to more (and not ask me to take it easy - I know you can push things to a point before they snap and trust me am as far away from snapping as rationality is far from human brains).
I have thought hard about it but for some reasons, I can't find a solution. You know who I am and what I stand for. Any thoughts?
2. I asked you in a previous letter if I should publish these on my blog. But I am still undecided. I am on the fence. Couple of you want me to publish this on the blog as well - and you have given me great reasons (expand the audience, social proof, etc) but I am not convinced if I want to just copy-paste the same thing at multiple places. Or maybe publish this first on the blog and just mail you guys the link (or maybe copy-paste the text in the email for easier consumption). I am not sure of it. I am still fishing for ideas and thoughts. You have any?
Whatever I think, I will implement by the 27th.
Oh, talking of 27th, I am doing a digital detox between 27 and 30. I will not have access to email / phone / computer etc. Just a basic feature phone, SMS and a few books and notepads. Let's see how it goes. I had planned to do 12 sessions (1 session is 3 days on the trot) of digital detox in 2019. This will be the 4th session.
3. Fitness. Just one word. I know the importance. I know that I need to be a carnivore. I know that I need to lift weights. I know that I need to get the cardio going. I need a medical test. I need to eat better. I need to quit toxic things. And yet, I have not moved a step in the direction. Conditioning is not allowing me to eat beef or whatever. I "believe" that I don't have time to workout (and yet I am spending an average of 6 hours and 44 minutes on my phone every day).
I have the ecosystem in place. I have easy access to a gym, to running shoes, to a swimming pool, to people who are crazy about fitness. I can control my time to a reasonable extent. And I have the money to spare. And yet I am unable to do it. Why? What do you think? Am I a mere armchair activist that believes in merely talking about things and not experiencing those? You know, how philosophers are?
So yeah. These are the top 3 things that are troubling me. There are many more, to be honest, but if I can crack these 3, I will be sorted.
Do let me know what you think.
Oh, one more thing. While I love that I can open up with you guys and write whatever comes to my mind. But I know that you gave me permission to email you because I promised that I will talk about things that will nudge you to be better. These rants, personal posts are in no way nudging you anywhere. With time I will try to move toward that. Please bear with me till then.
As always, thank you for reading.
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